I know you!!

Why didn't you asked at that time when you came and I said you "I am hard"! 

Why didn't you think at that time when I said you ,you are important to me 

Why did you  let me fall for you if you don't have the capabilty to handle me in my hard times. 

Why didn't you think  at that time when you said to me that you will love me. 

Why didn't you just stoped me, when I breaked  all my rules for you. 

 Why didn't you feel me when I just gave my whole self to you. 

Why didn't you stoped , when you saw that I am using your colours to paint myself. 

And you are saying it now! That I m hard to love.. 

I may have insecurities but once you accepted it ! you loved them and now it is hard... 

I may have the thousands of defects.. But I never betrayed you ..

 I showed  you myself... 

You said that distance is the reason we need to come close and I accepted that I showed you myself but you only chossed to "touch the petals not the steam" 

You gave me scars and I don't know how to bandaged them. 

I never forced you to be forever with me but I forced you to love me with your whole heart whenever you feel even for few minutes but it should  be pure.. 

I m not alone there are so many familiar faces but I just needed the lap of that person who used to made "me feel me." 

I wanted to be locked down with you.. But now I realized that their was always the 'I 'in our connection and i just painted into only in my head as "we".. 

Why you made it so hard for me.. And  coerced  me showed me your mirror that only reflects that i m dense...Why can't you just felt me!! 

I have the ability to love and I loved you , and my love will help you in your future in loving someone.. 

I will rise again because I loved my self more and for me I will stand again. 

Pallavi singh.