Not this time!

I don't want to be the big person this time, 

I am not going to pardon you this time. 

I gave you the whole self of mine, 

I am not going to pardon you this time... Not this time! 

I always thought, no matter what! I always wanted you no matter at which cost! 

I trade myself for you.... 

I am done now ,for me . I am not letting myself sanction now ......Not from now! 

I always felt devastated with the fact of loosing you...... It made me distraught and coerced me to feel remorse! 

Why I always fasten myself , and showed my amiable side to you.....and made myself frighten with the fact of loosing you! 

And inculcated myself with all these wretched fact! 

You are not evildoer but "our knot was!"

I always coerced myself  to pardon you,

And condone you everytime just for the the sham facts of you and mine..... But not this time! 

I will not be the pianoforte this time... I will not accept your pardon this time ! 

God once said that  "just to offer pardon from your side" ! But I don't want to be the benignant this time..... I don't feel like! 

I am better off without you and this same line is also goes for you! 

Maybe I will forgive you one day but not today!

The only power I have on you is to spare you  The malice towards you, to forgive you... But I don't want to use that power also...... Not this time " I want to let you go with the open heart of mine and frozen wind of this beautiful Devine! "...... So not this time!" We can share the same song but to dance on our own paths! "

Pallavi singh.